There just doesn't seem like there is enough time or energy these days to keep up on my (what should be) daily blogging. Or maybe I just have so much going on that I don't have the energy to sit down and put things into written form. Maybe it's a mix of all of the above but for whatever reason, I am slacking and don't think for a single second I don't have guilt over it. I do...which is silly and all....but I do. Because, you know, I think my life is *that* interesting to all 300 of you who stop by daily to check on me. :) Yeah yeah......I'm not really that full of myself but I do feel bad when the days slip by without me posting. I know how *I* feel when I stop by your blogs and there are no new updates. It's like "What? Too busy to talk with me? FINE!" and then I sulk. :)
Oh goodness. Maybe I shouldn't drink so much coffee in the morning. I get a bit bouncy and silly.
Let's see.....the kids are good. Kaylen has a new obsession: Otter Pops and the girl is going to drive me to the brink. I swear she would eat them all day long if I didn't cut her off. But Lord help me when I tell her "This is the LAST one for now!" because all hell breaks loose and suddenly I am the worst mom EVER and she hates me. I am going to chalk it up to an addiction issue and not take it personally.
So why do I continue to buy them for her? Yeah.....I dunno. I'm a sucker.
Kelton is doing well and growing like a weed. In school he is doing very well. We pulled back from his penmanship and spelling tutoring to avoid him getting burned out and giving up and it seems to have helped because he really was getting burned out. His penmanship has come a long way and he is trying with his spelling. His speech issues really give him a challenge though. And speaking of speech, he is doing well. His "th" sound is coming along nicely which is really great. I think correcting his speech problems will take more time than originally thought but it's coming along.
As for me, I'm keeping busy. Looking for a job and applying for ones I am qualified for takes up a chunk of time every morning. Slugging back an entire pot of coffee takes some time too so I multi-task on that one. :) I'm exploring options in my personal life which is great, fun, at times overwhelming but mostly really, really good. Figuring out what you want in life in your mid-40's is waaaaaaaaaaay different than in your mid-20's. Add to that kids, needing to do what is in their best interest, needing employment, needing to be thoughtful with my decisions, and all the other adult stressors and well.....it's a lot. Sometimes I think I have no idea what I'm doing on any front but I just keep muddling along trying to make the best choices I can. Sometimes I wish I had a time machine to travel forward and see where I will be and to know that I'm doing well in the here and now with my choices and decisions. But - since I don't have a time machine, I just have to follow my heart and my gut instincts. That's the best I can do.
The weather has been up and down. Rain and then amazingly beautiful and then rain again. I love, love, love the beautiful days and they do so much to lift my spirits but I have to say - the back and forth of the temperatures and humidity and barometric pressure really screws with me. The barometric pressure effects my spinal fluid pressure and triggers headaches (and for those of you who get migraines, this is true for you as well) and the changes in temperature and humidity really affect my skin. I swear to you that lately I feel like a 13 year old in need of acne treatment. It's crazy. But that is what spring does to me. Every. Single. Year. Ugh.
Tonight Dakota is coming over for her time with the kids (it's a wacky schedule this month due to trips, school events, etc.). Dakota's girlfriend is in town again so she and I are going to hit happy hour and hang out for a while. I really enjoy her company and she is fun to talk with. I know what many of you are probably thinking but you know what? I don't really care. :) Dakota and I are thoughtful in our decisions regarding the kids and what goes on around them and since we are lesbians and moms, the kids have been surrounded by women their entire lives. It's men they are completely unfamiliar with having in their lives in a capacity other than grandfather, uncles or cousins. Our bringing friends into their lives now is not much different than before. It's all in the way things are presented, framed and talked about. Unless you are a lesbian with children, I'm not sure you can understand it all. But know this: a lesbian divorce is NOTHING like a heterosexual divorce. And Dakota's and my divorce is NOTHING like anyone elses. We are friends and co-parents and we are in all of this together. So really? Unless you are Dakota, Kelton, Kaylen or me; you have no say in what happens or doesn't happen. So there! :) You are welcome to handle your children, your ex, their new partner and your divorce in whatever manner works for you. I promise I won't judge you for your decisions so do not judge me.
I'll get off my soapbox now. :)
And on that note, I will end this and let everyone, myself included, get back to their lives. Have a great day/evening/night!