Monday, January 10, 2011

It Continues On...

The job hunt is continuing on into the second year. The second year! I am completely shocked by that and well....humbled. I've never had trouble finding a job. Never. I once left a job without any warning and within 3 days, I had another (better) job. I've never not gotten a job I applied for. Not once.

This is a hit to my self-esteem like you would never believe. Yeah yeah, I know all the lines of "It's the economy." "Hang in there. The right job will come along.", etc. They don't help. I'm a good bet for a job. I'd be a great employee. There is nothing I can't learn and master. I'm intelligent. I'm punctual and responsible. I'm worth the risk. But when I am up against hundreds of people applying for the same positions, how can I make myself stand out? The biggest strike against me is my time out of the workforce. I know this hurts my chances, but it's the truth and there is nothing I can do to change that gap. I need someone who will see the value in what I have been doing for the past 8 years.

Part of me is angry that I decided to stay at home with my babies (walking away from an amazing, and well paid, position) and yet, I know it was the best I could have given my children. I know that they are the people they are today because I stayed home. I guess it's safe to say I am mixed on that decision. I loved that I was able to raise my babies but it sure is biting me right now.

Is it any wonder that, after three hours of being on the job hunt, I am exhausted? Trying to sell myself to a perspective employee is hard work.

3 comments:

Mimi said...
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Mimi said...

All I can say is things happen for a reason...just think if you had started a new job there is no way you would of been able to help your daughter like you have....so maybe someone or god knew what they were doing.......hang in there you will find a job....I just feel it.....love ya

Tanya said...

How about finding a volunteer opportunity to give yourself some current history. And I know it's a really bad time to have to find a job.