The job hunt is continuing on into the second year. The second year! I am completely shocked by that and well....humbled. I've never had trouble finding a job. Never. I once left a job without any warning and within 3 days, I had another (better) job. I've never not gotten a job I applied for. Not once.
This is a hit to my self-esteem like you would never believe. Yeah yeah, I know all the lines of "It's the economy." "Hang in there. The right job will come along.", etc. They don't help. I'm a good bet for a job. I'd be a great employee. There is nothing I can't learn and master. I'm intelligent. I'm punctual and responsible. I'm worth the risk. But when I am up against hundreds of people applying for the same positions, how can I make myself stand out? The biggest strike against me is my time out of the workforce. I know this hurts my chances, but it's the truth and there is nothing I can do to change that gap. I need someone who will see the value in what I have been doing for the past 8 years.
Part of me is angry that I decided to stay at home with my babies (walking away from an amazing, and well paid, position) and yet, I know it was the best I could have given my children. I know that they are the people they are today because I stayed home. I guess it's safe to say I am mixed on that decision. I loved that I was able to raise my babies but it sure is biting me right now.
Is it any wonder that, after three hours of being on the job hunt, I am exhausted? Trying to sell myself to a perspective employee is hard work.