Missing My Babies Being Babies
Yes, they will always be my babies but I am at a point where I am really, really (did I mention really?) missing my kids being tiny babies. I suppose I'm at the point where people start thinking of having another baby (and believe me - I've entertained that thought...after all, when Kelton was two we were already working on Kaylen) but honestly, I've boiled it down to the fact that it isn't a third child I am wanting/needing....I'm wanting to re-live, from the very beginning, my own children's infancy. I want them to be tiny again. No...further back then that. I want to go back to being pregnant with Kelton and start all over again. No...it's not another baby I crave...I just want to rewind time and start again.
Yes, they will always be my babies but I am at a point where I am really, really (did I mention really?) missing my kids being tiny babies. I suppose I'm at the point where people start thinking of having another baby (and believe me - I've entertained that thought...after all, when Kelton was two we were already working on Kaylen) but honestly, I've boiled it down to the fact that it isn't a third child I am wanting/needing....I'm wanting to re-live, from the very beginning, my own children's infancy. I want them to be tiny again. No...further back then that. I want to go back to being pregnant with Kelton and start all over again. No...it's not another baby I crave...I just want to rewind time and start again.
And it would be really great if I could take the knowledge I have *now* back with me to then. :)
So in honor of all my baby-longing tonight, I made a baby page. This is Kaylen when she is two days old. Breathing unassisted but still attached to far too many wires and monitors. This is the day I was finally able to hold her all I wanted and I did. The nurses kept coming to give me pain medication and tried to convince me to return to my room to rest(I had Kaylen via c-section). Nothing doing. I stayed with my baby all day long. I'm sure more baby pages will be coming in the days ahead. Just call it therapy. :)
So in honor of all my baby-longing tonight, I made a baby page. This is Kaylen when she is two days old. Breathing unassisted but still attached to far too many wires and monitors. This is the day I was finally able to hold her all I wanted and I did. The nurses kept coming to give me pain medication and tried to convince me to return to my room to rest(I had Kaylen via c-section). Nothing doing. I stayed with my baby all day long. I'm sure more baby pages will be coming in the days ahead. Just call it therapy. :)
credit: Sweetly by Andrea Burns
10 comments:
Aww! I know the feeling. Every day sveral times I think to myself "Corinne is so big." NOw I am starting to do it with Dylan. I look forward to who they are becoming but I miss my babies.
So beautiful!! I get that feeling too, although I do want to have another baby also, there are times when I just want to hold my tiny baby in my arms again and just miss that time.
I love your page.
The saying is sadly true. Time flies...and much too quickly
I so get it. I thought I would remember every detail about them when they were babies, but I don't and it makes me so sad.
What a beautiful page. Thanks for sharing your memories with us.
Yeah, I get it. I'd love to go through so many of these experiences again.
Sometimes I think I'd love to have another child. But really what it comes down to was my love for what I’ve already had/experienced... and I want *that* all over again. Sure, another pg and another baby may give me that. But it won't end the desire and I've convinced myself that I can't keep having babies!
I also really like the age gap of our kiddos and if we were to add another the gap between the girls and the youngest would be farther than our ideal. We are ready to hold onto these memories and move forward into the next chapters of parenting. I can't imagine the memories that we have yet to create!
Another awesome page!
I hear ya. That new baby smell, their tiny, tiny feet and fingers, the cooing, and first smile, laugh, and squeaky baby cry. I miss it so much. I was just thinking today that Froggy is such a kid now, and has abandoned her baby ways. I love this new kid, but miss her as a babe. And that picture is precious!
I remember feeling the way you for the first time when Gabo was 17 months old. You're smart to that you are missing those two babies specifically, not just babies in general. That's a terrific way to think about it. I miss babies too.
Yeah...funny how it is. I feel the same way. Sometimes I look at Lucas (who is 3 just a few days after Katie) and wonder hmmm should we think about another? And then I slap myself. Three boys??? not just two? Am I crazy?? We will never know. I am done with that baby thing. Now everyone around me can have babies for me to enjoy! :-)
Casey- I so know this feeling. I miss my babies being babies. As much as I have fun with the stages they are at now, I miss that infant smell, and coo's and well everything but the long nights!
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