Thursday, April 01, 2010

Random

This house is a mess. The floors need mopping and vacuuming and the bathrooms need cleaning. I'm pretty sure the kitchen sink needs to be bleached as well. I am equally sure that I don't feel like doing any of it. I'm managing to keep up on the basics and that's it. I'm sure by the time I feel like cleaning I will need to invest in some industrial supplies. Ok - probably not but still.

I can't believe Easter is Sunday. For the first year ever since having kids I have not pulled out decorations and I really don't care about it. I'll need to go into the garage and find the kids baskets and plastic eggs but beyond those things - I'm not doing anything this year. I'm alone with the kids all weekend - thank goodness the bunny is bringing them both movies because that's going to pretty much be the extent of Easter at my house.

I've learned some hard lessons lately. First and foremost is you never really know who your friends are until something major takes place. Then? Then it's easy, though painful, to weed out the people who aren't. It sucks when you think you have friends and it turns out they never were but that's life. I have realized that most people who start caring after something huge happens in your life are mostly there for the gossip factor. People love drama and apparently many will pose as friends to get it. It's a sad statement of fact but there it is. Always good to know the people you can really count on though and now, at least, I know who they are.

I've learned that when people who honestly care about you are worried about you, they will go outside their comfort zone to talk with someone they would rather not to make sure you are being checked up on.

I've learned something really important about myself over the past 7 months; when I am sad, I will eat. When I am heartbroken, I don't. Size 6, here I come.

14 comments:

Audra said...

*hugs*

Anonymous said...

Diana and I send our love and hugs to you and the kids. Know that we are thinking of you and holding you in our hearts.

Tribe Mama said...

Aw Casey, I am sorry you are sad and struggling. I am hoping for brighter tomorrows for you.

Deb said...

I'm so sorry, Casey. Hang in there, 'cause it will get better. I know it's hard to imagine that now, but I promise you, it will. Meanwhile, you DO have friends in your life who care about you!! Wish I was closer, I'd give you a real hug instead of the virtual ones. Hopefully they help anyway!

Caroline said...

I am so sorry Casey. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better.

Hang in there...the next best thing is right around the corner.

Mary-Pat said...

"Anything that doesn't kill you, makes you stronger," and you are already so much stronger than you know. Hang in there, and keep feeling the feelings. The only way out is through.
Hmmmm...can't think of any more corny sayings to throw in here, so I guess I'm done. :-)
But corny or not, it's all true.
Love you, MP

Shannon said...

Admittedly, I don't really know or understand the situation but I'm sorry to hear that you have been disappointed once again by whoever you are referring to. You do have people who support you and care drama or no drama. I'm sorry that virtual friendships are so limiting as to the support we can give. Hang in there, you are very strong and will overcome.

Lynilu said...

Aw, Casey, I'm sorry to hear this. You deserve better, for sure. Take care of yourself, please. There is a hug winging to you.

hackwife said...

I don't like the sound of this :( very sorry something has happened.

KERRY said...

I wish there was something more we as cyber friends could do but unfortunately due to miles we can't. We do care and hope you find peace soon Casey.

Shawna said...

hang in there casey! you will get through this.

nikk said...

You've also learned how strong you, and what you deserve from a relationship. You've learned that you can depend on yourself, and who your friends are. Give yourself some credit, girl!

yankeegirl said...

Just. keep.going. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. You are so strong and capable, much more than you realize or give yourself credit for. :-)

sally said...

I wish I could have called you the past few days to ask if you were ok. I was really concerned that you were having some kind of stress in your life when you did not post. Tread slowly friend, the heart is a fragile thing sometimes-hold tight to it. This last statement seems very intrusive of me, I apologize, but I am hoping for the best for you.