Tomorrow is a big day for me. Sure, I've had bigger days and yes, I know I'm not the only person in the world to go through this but it's still a big deal to me.
Thanks to a bad pap, I have to have a biopsy. I am absolutely not looking forward to it. I hemmed and hawed about going public with this and I decided to just throw it out there. I've kept it a secret for weeks while I waited for the appointment date to grow closer. It is close and I know this because I received my confirmation phone call from the doctor's office just a few minutes ago. Ugh. Reality smacked up against denial in a big way.
I have done a great job of keeping it off the front burner for weeks now. I have tried not to focus on it because there is nothing I can do about it. Worrying wasn't going to change anything. Two days ago it hit me that it was "almost time" and I admit I started to stress out and spin. Today I am completely bouncing off the walls. I can't focus. *sigh*
I would so much rather be going to the doctor to discuss how to get rid of whiteheads. Seriously.
The message in all this is GET YOUR PAPS! I hadn't had one in two years because that was the recommendation of Kaiser when I was with them. I wonder if something would have shown up last year. Has something been going amiss for a while now? Is it all a fluke? A warped result which will turn out to be just fine? I hope and pray for the error answer.
The plus side to all this is I know will be having yearly paps no matter what the "current recommendations" of what ever medical system I am part of. Not that I look forward to paps but I DO look forward to a long, healthy life and so paps are part of the deal.
So if you are overdue for your pap - go get one. It's 5 minutes of uncomfortable embarrassment that is well worth it.
Go call your doctor. I'll be here when you get back. :)
4 comments:
Good luck with the biopsy, Casey! I wondered what was up, but you've been doing a great job of putting on a brave face. Hopefully you will have no more reason to worry after tomorrow. I am a huge believer in doing paps (and the mammo) annually. This year I didn't get one scheduled...I'm only 3 months late but it's been on my mind. I must have been channeling you because I called last week and am going next Thursday.
And now Kaiser says every THREE years! This blows my mind. I had normal results and then 18 months later, BAD results. What would have happened in another 18 months (thanks to being new to Kaiser, they said to do it and not wait ...)?? I'm with you, not enjoying this experience, but relieved to be getting them yearly from now on.
Best of luck tomorrow -- I'll be thinking of you!
Hey Casey, good luck with the biopsy kiddo. They get a lot of false positives but the biopsy will sort it out quickly. I've got a similar problem with the last mammogram but they are doing the 6 month wait to re-check. No history so I think I'm okay with that.
Your friend in Illinois,
Diana
Thinking good, clear thoughts for you my friend. My Kaiser dr. said to "screw the recommendation" and just make a yearly appt., which I've done now for years. Good Luck!
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