Dancing on the Edge

Where Are The New Posts?

I know that's what you are all thinking and I don't blame you. It's strange for me not to sit down and blog at least once a day. I've been preoccupied with all the stuff going on with my mom. It feels like I shouldn't just sit and think about regular ol' every day stuff with everything else swirling around me. It just feels so ...well..ordinary in the face of the extraordinary. If that makes any sense. I know it's important to stay with the every day too but everything still feels so new and well.....brightly colored. It's like my eyes haven't quite adjusted to everything. *sigh* I know - it makes no sense.

On top of all that, it's spring break for Dakota which means she is home in the evenings - which is usually when I have time to focus on blogging. Take right now, for instance: I can hear Barney singing in the livingroom and Kelton is sitting at the kitchen table playing with PlayDoh and narrating every step of the way. Cute - but hardly the quietness I need to think. :)

Dakota's mom came over to stay with the kids yesterday afternoon so I could go shopping for a suitable outfit for when it is needed. It's nice to know I have something in the house now. Though it was hardlt a fun shopping experience and I'm sure the girl in Macy's thought I was a total basketcase when I was talking with her to get her opinion and I started to cry. What do I know about clothes that require more thought than a pair of jeans and a t-shirt? Turns out not much - but I think I did ok. I even found dress shoes. Go figure.

I casually talked with Kelton about stuff. Just in a broad sense of "Grandma's body isn't doing very well these days. Did you notice that when we saw her? Well - someday she is going to go to heaven and we won't be able to visit with her when we go to Seattle." He was concerned about the following: Would Grandpa have to go too or could he stay? Would Grandma be able to brush her teeth? He seemed to take it all in stride and just said "Ok. But I'm going to miss her." Yeah buddy - me, too.

We've talked about spirits and souls before and he knows that people and animals go to heaven though he doesn't understand why we can't go visit. He knows that bodies stay behind and the part that makes people and animals who they are leave which means they don't have to take their sick bodies that no longer work. He also seems to grasp the difference between sick with a cold or flu vs. sick with a disease. It's all so hard but you know, it's some ways, it nice to be able to break it down into simple, child-friendly terms and concepts. I think it's helped me, too.

*sigh* Never easy, is it?

This weekend we are going to the beach again. I love going to the beach. I'm hoping to log in some rest, relaxtion and family fun. The weekend after, we are heading back to Seattle. The weekend after that is Kelton's birthday, then hopefully we'll have a weekend just to stay at home and get caught up on stuff and then the following weekend we'll probably be back in Seattle. It's a long drive with the kids and it isn't all fun staying in a hotel with them (not to mention how incredible expensive it is with food, gas, hotel, etc) but I know it's important for my mom and I also know it's important for me.

Life is a journey, is it not?