She's Gone

Tazzy, true to her independent nature, chose to leave this earth on her own terms and alone. Dakota went into the vet's office to sign in and take care of all the paperwork and left Taz in her carrier in the car. Taz was clearly dying in front of our eyes this morning and for about 10 minutes I thought a trip was going to be unnecessary. Her cries through spurred us into action because we didn't want to force her to linger and she was clearly in pain.

When Dakota went out to the car to get her (she left her there to spare her unneeded jostling and stress since she was in pain) Taz was dead.

We believe she chose that time to go. Alone. She had come out to find us this morning in the living room and allowed us to see she needed help. Then she let us all say goodbye but then she wanted to get away from us. We closed all the room doors so she couldn't go hide under a bed but left her alone until it was time to put her in the carrier. She clearly didn't want us with her even then so really, it doesn't surprise me that we saw her chance to go on her own terms and alone and took it.

We are all really going to miss her. As obnoxious as she was known to be, she had been with me 6 months before I met Dakota. Taz has been a big part of our life - which says a lot for a 7lb cat. Sure, she may have been a wee little thing but her heart was as big as the world.

Even though she was an indoor only cat - her heart longed to be outside. This summer I decided to stop fighting the cats and let them have outside time in the backyard (supervised) only. They loved it but none more than Taz. I'm so glad I gave her a summer of outside. She loved lying under the trees and play structure and she loved playing chase a a stick with the kids and she loved, loved, loved being in my lap on the swing and soaking up the sun. We all love you, Taz!